I've lost my mentor.
I've lost my foundation buck.
I've lost the opportunity to get two new does.
I haven't stopped crying since I hung the phone. Even an extra "happy pill" hasn't made a dent. My hopes and dreams seem to be crashing around me. I screwed up, it wasn't a little screw up, it was huge and detrimental. I feel lost, unsure. Every ounce of me says quit, give up, yet this little voice says keep plugging along. I'm truly at a loss right now.